I wanna feel Weightless

2010-02-20T07:33:00.000+08:00

Now blogging at HERE , the links all will still be on this blog :D

2010-02-17T01:55:00.001+08:00

Not blogging here anymore :)

2009-11-20T23:32:00.004+08:00

PROM WAS AWEESOME !! GWAHHHH :D

All of us used to be close

2009-10-24T05:52:00.004+08:00

Was studying from morning to evening yesterday

with of course , a few distractions from the comp :)

anyway , I met up with Eriza in the night

we had nothing to do , AT ALL !

ate , played arcade like crazy and then we played L4D at the Lan shop

sounds like a typical life for ahlianzx ?

well , yesterday was a special day :O

Today morning at around 12am

we were walking to the playground to slack

saw the bunch of boys who used to "chase" me Jae around at Sunset way

chase as in angrily chased us and not woo woo kinda chase

and then ...

we got stalked by some dog nigga who cant stop scratching his dick

( Shawn was right about the attracting the wrong people thing )

so we tried to avoid him

until when we got into my block the lift

we saw him walking towards us

and when the door was closing ..

I shouted FUCKER in his face

was scared like crap but I did something I never did before

should have asked him to stop scratching his dick or something though

hahahahaha !

Got home

Baobao and Racheal were still awake

Eriza played Sally Spa on my comp

and Baobao was commenting like madwoman

I was watching Death Note :O

left my place again at around 2 or 3am

we became Baobao and Racheal's food delivery aunties

reached home again , ate and watched the movie ...

" Angus , Thongs and Perfect Snogging "

FUNNNNNY !! ( the movie , duh , not becoming aunties )

wanted to ask people who stayed around out

but nooo , no one replied !

so currently now

Eriza bathed and is sleeping on my bed in my mum's room

and I just bathed and trying to dry my hair before I sleep

oh yeah , me and Eriza shared many things

during this evening-meet-up-to-the-next-morning story

I know her stuff and she knows mine :D

( in hope that things will get better )

GOODNIGHT :D

2009-10-21T00:48:00.003+08:00

Am studying like a bitch now

less than a week before Os start

to anyone taking Os this YEAR ,

GOOD LUCK, DONT GIVE UP, EVERY PAPER IS A NEW BEGINNING !

*twist twist sign*

Oh yeah , my head has been coming up with lyrics lately

hope I can share it with the band soon

and it isnt only me who helped in ending the whole song :D

2009-10-16T09:33:00.000+08:00

Im gonna study now .

X.X

I am sick today :(

2009-10-15T13:02:00.006+08:00

Finally , I can post pictures :O

hahaha , few pictures to share ...

Class Outing :)

Old old picture .

With Ade ,

With Bunny and ...

With sissy .

The fight between the reds !

Wondergays :D

Us with our "cannot" faces .

You look different !!

Bunny and Crazy <3

The End .

YO!

2009-10-14T19:10:00.002+08:00

Changed my blogskin yet again :O

hope the old layout can make blogger load pictures !

Me

2009-09-27T02:03:00.002+08:00

Hello to all people who are still reading this empty space

since I have nothing to do

shall blog then :)

moving on ...

I feel kinda lonely today

shock to hear that right ?

cause usually the Raynee that you all know have many things to do

but no , not today

although I met Eriza and Sherlyn for a little while

and talk to one person online for the whole day

I still feel lonely

and I cant upload pictures to the blog

blogger isnt working ...

haha , guess I'll do it another day then

I recently got screwed by my mom too

but it was my fault

actually I dont really know ...

Lastly , the reason that I blogged today is because Im lonely :)

2009-08-22T16:08:00.001+08:00

Last night was fun and wasted !!

pictures found in www.facebook.com

my profile of cause !!

out to meet me Eriza

Missing old times ...

2009-08-16T00:40:00.004+08:00

Cant sleep ..... yet .

kinda thinking of the past

but , if it wasnt for me

everything wouldnt end up this way

that is why , everyday is a challenge to me

I just hope that I wont screw up anything

really miss those times

Baobao eating , not a surprise to me

she just gets larger and larger everyday

oh well .

oh yeah , I made a new friend on the streets ?
I guess he's not bad anyway

Goodnight :)

2009-08-13T08:52:00.002+08:00

In schl ...
gotta go for P.E !!
BYE !!!!!!!!

2009-08-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

I think Im gonna lose a friend

like seriously

just because of a stupid secret

I really dont know what to do ..

Date : 1st if August

2009-08-02T07:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday till now

was the longest and most hectic time I've ever spent in my whole life

I hung out with loads of people

people you can never imagine

but the sad thing was

I had to preoccupy myself so that I wont "commit suide" in myself

After what happened the whole day

I realised a lot of things you know

just by thinking

something's bad gonna happen real soon as I guessed before

but this time

I really wonder ...

16 ?

2009-07-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

OMG , I cried today cause my classmates bullied me .

Not all of them of cause :D

but after that I got all crazy and high till now !!

Seriously , CLASSMATES can make you look strange at times ...

like laughing and crying with a very terrible face

A nice time laughing !

2009-07-26T04:32:00.004+08:00

Whoa whoa whoa ~
4.30 am and look what I found ...

AHAHAHAHAHA !
and you know what ?!?!

ITS A BASS GUITAR !!!

okok , I had a good laugh :D

but the person who did this hairstyle must be awesome

I wonder what is it for anyway ...

Oh yeah !

Went jamming today , not good

cause Kenn didnt come along

but quite cool uh

I mean the atmosphere

Upload pictures soon ?

come on ... Im lazy

Good morning all , and goodnight to me :D

Another busy week goes by ...

2009-07-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

Sudden urge to blog :)
anyway I have something to say ...

Happy Birthday Wong BaoBao :)
I guess your wishes will come true ??
and my mum's birthday in 2 days time
dont know what to get !!

Well I have something else to say ...

such a short time yet such a big impact !!

this way or that ?!?!

Ok , that'll be all for today

should I play Left 4 Dead ?

No answers means yes !

WHOOO , bye !

P.S remember to shave everyday !!

2009-07-15T20:29:00.001+08:00

I got a very bad feeling that something really bad is gonna happen
and it's something that is related to the person I trust most

I really dont like this feeling , it sucks .

Mixture of feelings

2009-07-07T00:36:00.004+08:00

Recently there's been many fun things going on !
and no since its already past midnight ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENN !!
been your friend for 4 years yet Im still scared of you
cannot believe right , but true la
dont know why when you guess , always correct one
maybe you're too smart ?
later I praise you too much you too happy , cannot cannot :D
anyways , happy 16th birthday

whoa , feel so high now !!
maybe its because of Kenn's birthday or what
lucky day ( 7/7 )

well , now only some of you know whats going on in my life
I've been hanging out with the usual people since
and it gets better and better everyday !!
its like , as quarrels go by and stuff
we get to get closer and closer with one another
friends are the best , dont you think ?!

well , if you know what Im talking about for this paragraph
for what I believe in now
Im going all for it
to change myself for what I want
and this time , I must get serious
if not I will never ever get what I want
I just hope that I can control myself la
you know , Raynee = no self-control
even my form teacher says so

and ....
I think Im in love with a baby alien
Ruu chama

he has physic powers that can make you float

and as a baby he's smart !

BACK

2009-06-21T19:28:00.011+08:00

Herroooooooooo !!

Im back to blog today

been kinda busy recently for the holidays

first ....

DRUMZOUT 2009

went to watch Shafeeq perform

everyone was so HIGH !

went with Bernard Josh Fir Shawn Junhao Cephas and Jeremy Yeo

Josh Jeremy and Cephas left

the rest of us left to East Coast Park

played bowling with Bernard's family

for everything that has happened in the night

I lazy to explain !

went home at 2

Berd and Fir

The others I dont dare to take their photos !

In the middle

went to Shawn house to slack and swimm

before that all of them were at Fico

there was Kenn Bernard Shafeeq Josh and Shawn

Kenn went home

and the rest of us played

was resting there :)

Next stop , SL Camp
kinda tiring

but overall was FUNN !

although it was a lil messy

oh well , as long as everyone's happy !

Garrick

Haziq

Shaula

One of my camp station

the only station that I had fun in

oh yeah , the group above is my sister's group

today , she said our band name not nice

oh well , we cant satisfy everyone

Before camp even ended , I went out with this crazy babis
went to Haji Lane

slacked and ate

Kenn Shafeeq and Fir are in the picture

there was also Bernard and Eriza

Lastly , Malaysia !

WHOOOO , I had hell loads more fun there than anywhere else

but we were busy playing so little pictures were taken

the funniest part was when we got to the club

and watched people danced

you can see the difference , as in which person is from which country

DAMN FUNNY !

Rayneeeee !

Berd with his pink lips Kenn(s) and Shafeeq(s)

ending here , kinda tired from blogging

woke up too early I guess

oh yeah , I woke up with a bleeding nose

good thing it didnt stain anywhere on my bed

Alright , BYE ALL

2009-06-11T18:04:00.001+08:00

Heading to Malaysia in 3 hours time !!

hope I'll have fun there :)

2009-06-07T12:43:00.002+08:00

my grandma went to cook the last packet of maggie !
Im hungry like mad now :(

Update*
She shared it with meeee !! :D

Long day yesterday ...

2009-06-07T11:28:00.007+08:00

I look so fierce here :O

Tried my best to smile !

As seen from my Twitter , I went out yesterday
met Bernard

he kinda got angry cause I was late

nevermind , he came to fetch me to Vivo

reached there

realised that Shafeeq not coming anymore

so we searched around for the present

his bro's birthday and there was a party at night

couldnt find the gift at all

so we went to find a seat

sat at the staircase -.-

talked

he went overboard in what he was saying

got a little angry

quarrelled

I slapped his back

he punched my arm

he continued with more mean stuff

got very very angry

and I screamed at him , very loudly

for this whole part I have to apologise

but yesterday I tried my best not to quarrel with him

nevermind ...

Stroll around Vivo alone like a moron

everyone thought I was weird with my red nose

quickly left there

took the MRT to Jurong West

met Eriza and Sherlyn

confrontation

went home with Eriza

while confronting ,

looked up at one of the apartment

a guy stripped

fucked , I saw his ass

good thing I wasnt alone

while going home ,

woman was resting on the chairs beside a pool

her armpits were showing and I swear I saw this

other stuff after I saw the woman is just between me Eriza and Sherlyn

Yeah , and Bernard ...

we seriously need to do something about tht quarrelling

and Im really sorry for embarassing you at Vivo yesterday

yeah ..

2009-06-06T02:46:00.005+08:00

To love is to let go

and to see the one you love happy always

its no use tying down the ones you love

it'll get more and more miserable ... right ??

Tired ...

I need to sleep now

however , thinking stops me from sleeping

Im not thinking sad stuff

no no no no no , no such thing !

oh yeah , I need to stop what Im doing , SOON .

going to Malaysia :)

hope it turn out well though

eh eh , lifelong partner ah Eriza !

ok , this isnt making my life any better

and it cant make me happy :(

so Im gonna go sleep , goodnight !!

Home early -.-

2009-05-28T17:19:00.002+08:00

Having second thoughts whether I should go Malaysia
dont need to ask me why (:
just feel that way with many reasons
one of the reasons why I left them early too

I've finally blogged !

2009-05-27T20:08:00.006+08:00

Changed my blogskin !

after so long I have blogged uh

hahahahahaha

I always hang out with my classmates nowadays

especially those I am super duper close with

you know who are you ah

Oh yeah ...

He went Malaysia !! :(

hope you have a safe trip and come back soon

we'll miss you .

I hope and wish I can go to Malaysia in the June holidays

Berd's gonna create it

but there's a little trouble here and there

Let me goooo please !

*update

OMG , Kenn Shafeeq Eriza

my wish came true !!

remember yesterday at the park and I burnt a paper

drew someone's ugly face and burnt it with wishes on it

it almost came true

even that someone itself said it itself !!

2009-05-17T00:27:00.003+08:00

Had a sudden urge to blog !!!!

Im a VP ( what the heck is that ? )

* ok , I asked Berd what is and he said it Very Pig -.-

went to swim at Kenn's place with ...

Eriza Kenn Feeq Fir Josh Berd

super duper fun and funny

although people did get angry thou

Aimed for the spa first

me and Eriza enjoyed !!

then everyone jumped in together

played with water

went back to the pool

watched the guys pull Fir pants and his ass was screened 7 times

continue playing

and Berd was the next target

after that his back had red marks

poor thing !!

from 6 to about 9 , we were swimming

after that we went to bathe

things happened in the guys toilet

damn funny , but guy stormed out

and while drying the only shirt I had

I tore it :(

so in the end Eriza had to go out and get a shirt for me

Feeq lent me his

but I was wearing a PJ

so in the end I lent Josh's

sorry and thank you , you two

and for the others , especially Eriza , thanks too , I had a great day !!

WHOA WHOA WHOA !!

2009-05-15T12:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BITHDAY TO ...
SHERLYN LIM !!

friends for almost 6 years already leh
cannot take it ah
I dont have your picture !!
cannot show how cute your face is here
well , she's a maneater
later she eat me up :P
WHIS WHATEVER YOU WANT COMES TRUE
love love love you :D

Oh yeah and there was Eriza's birthday on ...
oh crap I forget
but I remember
I had the greatest fun on any birthday that I have celebrated for anyone !!

Oh oh oh , and Mr Sia's birthday on 4 May
funniest shit man :D

ok , byebye !

2009-05-13T19:59:00.004+08:00

Not blogging again

I have the time and all , its just that I dont want to

thanks Feeq for helping me makes friends with Josh

I appreciate it a lot !

good luck to Josh , you know what I mean :)

now Im a messed up mode

always the wrong person eh

something must be wrong with my brains or eyes

of all people ...

changing blogskin when I got the time !

Im so going to change back to my old looks

but changing my attitude is still going on

the irritation especially

damn .

2009-04-16T15:53:00.000+08:00

Women are naturally born losers in a relationship .

2009-04-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

WHOOOOO , boring .
my life is getting into a bore
no more busy life
every day at home !!

I hope things get better
my Nationals for track and field is this tuesday
damn scared damn scared
I'll never get into semi - finals
being the last then :)

Im getting real worried ...
maybe I should not bother anymore
since you dont love me anymore
give up ?
yes !
-.-

Blog

2009-04-10T23:34:00.005+08:00

Adding in pictures ......

Me being crazy in the night before I blogged .

The frog is in my pencilbox !!

I finished this . It's Adelaide's !
went to her place and stay the night before :D

The Full Moon last night :)

BLOGGING TIME !
my blogging times are so unusual
some super early
some early
some late
some very late

anyways
Im blogging because I am home early
because there is no Berd ( beeeeee )

kinda miss his company cause I always go home late with him around
and I can contact people easily as well !
now its very difficult for me to do so
ahhhhhhhhh
coming back only on Sunday :(

Im having a competition
very soon , in like a few minutes and 2 days time
I bet I cannot get into the semi-finals
I run so slow , so die halfway one
Im scared
all my fault la , for not going to training for the past few years
I regret alot :(
why oh why ....
hope I can get something at the best
nahhh , dream on raynee .

having a great headache !
gonna go rest , blog around soon
kinda free these days
Im losing friends :(

bitch , motherfucking liar .
lies lies lies lies .
fucking hate you .

no wonder Im not your friend .

after losing you

I can guess where you going , know what you're doing

and I always get it correct

but recently

its not there

I guess wrongly all the time

depress ?

I have no idea , but that's what facebook said :(

miss you

2009-04-06T09:06:00.003+08:00

YAY !! Im blogging in schl :)

finally in a computer lab that allows me to blog my stuff ...

while having lessons :D

Im blogging because I have no idea what to do for my coursework :P

I think I have finished it

now for the pre-cooking but I dont have an oven at home

so planning to go over to Farsihah's place and do it :D

IM SOOO BORED :(

but glad that I can blog in schl

For beeeeee,
sorry to make you angry la , I didnt mean it what , mean asss .

wont be seeing you tomorrow and wednesday ! :(

2009-04-05T18:09:00.003+08:00

LOL , sorry for not blogging for such long time

was damn busy and didnt have the time to blog

anyways , I have 2 weird experience in a day !

shall not elaborate :D

Im always lazy to tell what Im doing

so dont boter writing it down

unless I have the mood to

sorry sorry :P

changed my song to maneater to

dedicated to Sherlyn Lim !!

LOL LOL LOL

she's a horrible maneater

awww , Im out of things to blog

soooo , see you , BYE !

Oh bitches , shut the fuck up , losers ( same colour as shit ) .

Weird guy

wondering what you want :O

2009-03-29T00:44:00.003+08:00

Hectic days once more
You are getting on my nerves , idiot .
grrr , ayways , sorry for not blogging .

You may not love me anymore , but I dare to say I love you more

in the bus today with Sherlyn and Eriza

and saw a couple , and they remind me of you .

2009-03-24T13:30:00.003+08:00

Arggg , Im gonna die soon
I feel damn horrile :(
I am sick
got flu , fever and sore throat
gonnna dieeee soon :(

and Im damn bored ..
Im dying from boredom too !
ahhhh , horrible day
I feel like going for training
AHHHHH !
headache :(

Ahhh , I miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much

even one day alone at home can kill me in one shot X.X

2009-03-20T23:47:00.005+08:00

hahaha , damn tired sia ...

RANDOM !

anyway , Im bored :O

thats why Im here !!

bored bored bored

gonna go sleep soon

got weights training tomorrow !! :D

I hope its not too tough :)

the chance ...
what if I go back to my old self ?
but I know that I wont la
Im just afraid ..... :S
but what if it was all a joke :(

Night Tour

2009-03-17T00:00:00.005+08:00

My blog may take some time to load ...

went to meet Kenn with Bernard few minutes back
had some small talks
ermm , nevermind , Medium chatting session :)

I dont feel like participating in jamming sessions anymore
after all the comments
feeling demoralised !!

ahahaha , just cant seem to please anyone anymore
demoralised demoralised demoralised :D
friends always work when you're down
but still dont feel that good though
:( :( :(

I CANT PLEASE ANYONE , sheesh .
not feeling good ~_~

still love you :)

HAPPY PILL !!

2009-03-16T20:32:00.005+08:00

Hello people reading !!
changed my blogskin again :D
they all look the same to me though
all the skins I edit from blogskins.com
oh well , as long as it suits me :)
imagine me putting a barbie doll or polly pocket blogskin -.-
I'll freak myself out even !!

having frantic days recently
too lazy to talk about them
I'm just very very happy
happy till can hop on my knees around :D
I thank everyone , yes , I mean EVERYONE
for helping me soo much
I love you all to the max

learning to open my eyes wider
and know more stuff you know
aiya , I dont know how to explain !!

People around me dont be sad
be happy , I'll be glad to be your happy pill :D

AHHH , you making me happy !

2009-03-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

EEEEEEEE , Im scared scared scared :(
the feeling of unsecureness ...

chatted a lot with Rynise through phone todayand she let me into her blog !!
interesting , interesting :D

and I chatted a lot with Maneater too
she's happy :)
I'm happy for her more !!

and I also chatted a lot with Jeremy
he's having a migrain , as usual
don't worry !!
Raynee will savee you :P

Ahhhh , my stomach is grinding me
I'm gonna die soon , savee me :(
the feeling always come at the wrong time one leh
no wonder I'm failing my exams ...

2009-03-09T06:03:00.003+08:00

It's 6.03 am ..
and I just woke up
after I slept at 4 am
o.O
anyways , I think my results are dropping lowwww
and I know whats happening
I cant concentrate at all in class :(
haiyoooo ...
bye , gonna go get ready for schl

" Monday is the hardest to wake up "
look at the time :)

2009-03-08T15:08:00.001+08:00

Shuxian showed me a damn funny video :P

...

Ahahahahahahahahahaha :P

Finally , some things :D

2009-03-08T12:59:00.002+08:00

When I was super young !!

I drew this :P

Nice picture :D

Hello people !!!!
soooo happpy this morning :D
I have no idea why as well :P

Today :

Gonna spend the day at home I guess

havent been going home early recently

Yesterday :

went to Adelaide's birthday chalet at Tanah Merah

and whoa , that place was nice :D

slacked there
went to play bowling

and sorry for not being able to be there

when the birthday cake was cut

I felt uneasy the whole time there ...

made new friends too :D

left the place at 11 by taxi

Bernard paid of cause to Clementi
got a call from Kenn

when we were walking around Clementi for a little

rushed and took a bus to Commonwealth

met Kenn at Queenstown

slacked a little more

then walked to Redhill

sent Kenn home

me and Bernard slacked at some block

walked to the Prata Shop

ate and Bernard paid :P
took taxi back home again

reached home at 3.30 am

changed slept

Friday :

Class photo :D

School as usual

after school went to Ah Keong store

Emma and MingSeng came along too

after that DnT sudents had a talk

they went back

and I went to meet Sherlyn at WCP

ate MOF there :P
walked back to school alone to meet Bernard

Jianyang came along too

called Fir

and Josh answered I guess ?

talked a little nonsense and met them at 7-11

took a bus to Qeensway

bought our new bags :D

went home , change

and met the class at my place downstairs

saw Ms Tan :O

a little delay and then 10 ++ people took my father's lorry to Bugis

met Mr Sia and a few others there

ate TianTianHuoGuo

the food was nice but the service sucked -.-

after that there was a little conflict
stupid

left Bugis and most of the class headed home

the rest of us went to the Eplanade

walked there of cause

after that walked to Marina Square

ate at Mac

slacked till 5 am ++

took cab and Bernard paid again

thanks for the shoulder anyway

got home

bathed and changed

Plus plus plus :

E-force have finally uploaded videos of our jamming sessions !!

E-force contain of Kenn Shafeeq Joshua Bernard and Firdhouse :P

hahahaha , funnnnny :D

okok , a few videos of us playing :)

Stop and Stare ( Acoustic )

The Middle ( Acoustic )

Face Down ( Cover )

You can watch more on me and Shafeeq profile :P ( click click click )
ok , bye :D
may post more later !!

I love you I love you I love you !!

Accident !!

2009-03-07T14:17:00.004+08:00

Ahhhhh , after helping Bernard to re-edit something in his blogskin ...
I accidentally deleted my whole previous blogskin
lost all my links and I cannot remember what stuff I left out in this blog
please help me remember , and tell me if I haven't link you :(

Going out soon , so excited :D

Im kinda sad ...

2009-03-03T00:07:00.004+08:00

Today's the first time I got home so early
usually , I mean everyday , I go home when the sky is dark
today the sun was sunny sunny bright !!

Anyways , today after schl went to had SL meeting
and then I sent my dear Adelaide home :)
when I stepped into her place I was like
" Whoa , memories . So long since I came in here . "
Then she laughed :P
talked to her till 4 plus ?
left her place and headed to Queensway
met the sexys and handsomes there :)
studied and then we walked around
went home after that
and while in the taxi
I was unconscious , sound asleep :D
damn tired this few days , and I have no idea too ?

Well ... Im still wondering who you went out with .
I think Im minding too much into people's business :S
ah , crap .

Got to go study and do my homework now , and look at the time .
WOOOOW !!
12.07 am :D

Goodnight all and have nice dreams instead of weird ones :S
by the way , I love my dreams .
and although I have an owl fetish , frogs are still the cutest :P

Im sure gonna dream about you tonight and Im looking forward to the next
episode of it :)

2009-02-28T12:17:00.003+08:00

Have not blogged for ???
anyways , for the whole week

Yesterday :
after training went home change and went to AYE street soccer court
Sherlyn came to meet me at my place :)
talked a lot then after that went to the park with Bernard and Douglas
chatted there and then went to Clementi bus interchange with Douglas
got in bus 185 and reached Sherlyn's place :)
talked a lot again !
then Bernard came
the 3 of us sat in her room and chatted
after that we left her place at 2 am
got home and zzzz .

Yesterday Yesterday :
after schl had training
almost went to the park and meet Shawn Josh Fir Feeq and Bernard
in the end Fir went home
and Shawn disturbed me
was a little upset
then I went home alone
met Fir on the way and we walked all the way to my place there
slaked alone at my place downstairs
thinking what the hell was wrong with me
got home and MSN - ed Bernard
and I did his whole blogskin :D

Yesterday Yesterday Yesterday :

went jamming and saw a RAINBOW !!

Ahhh , common test have been hacking my head x_x
I hope I'll pass with not-so-bad results
all the best to you all
STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :)

I didnt spend a single time with you for the whole week
:(

2009-02-22T03:03:00.002+08:00

Its Over !!
after months of thinking and comments from others
I will forget about him
and be his friend
I rather be a friend than to lose a friend !!
may have said something wrong just now
but since you're such a nice person
you'll forgive and forget , right ? :)

anyway
did some homework yesterday in the afternoon
at Jurong West library
then after that ate at Mos Burger at JP
went over to Fico and played balls
very very very happy :D
almost walked back because of me
but in the end got saved by Shafeeq
SORRY !!
Joshua went home
me and Bernard sat at the bus stop and talked for 1 plus hours
both walked over to my place and he left
THE END :P

2009-02-21T08:41:00.005+08:00

Was so bored at Ah Keong's shop yesterday

in the end we went jamming

wasted most of our time there

and then went to Kenn's place

did a few acoustic covers ?

went home by MRT

wasnt in such a good mood though

Okok , from today onwards

I wont tell anyone anything already

I cant trust people anymore

I feel very disappointed

I'll still be outgoing and stuff

but not too much anymore

I dont want to be bullied anymore too

I dont like it :(

If Im given another chance
I put my whole heart into it
I know what I did wrong
but that will never happen ...

2009-02-20T23:53:00.004+08:00

I just want you to be happy ,

you know ?

if you find another girl that suits you , go ahead
I know I will never be that good enough for you
as long as you're happy , everything's alright :)

2009-02-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

Well , having been posting pictures :)
I have loads of them in my phone
but I super lazy to post !!

And I think Im gonna have an Owl Fetish

after watching the 9pm show

" The owl is a symbol of wisdom, seriousness and thoughtfulness.

When you give someone an owl figurine, it means that you want him/her to stay happy.

Seeing an owl in the dream may also mean that you should take good advice from others.

Hearing an owl screeching denotes bad luck, frustration, grief or sadness.

Catching an owl or seeing an owl in the cage means that

you should be careful of weird people and bad company. "

Geeeee , I so happy I explained

but the guilt will still be there

ahhh , and I feel jealous :S

but oh well , both parties are happy

and I hope Im changing

for the better of cause :)

Thank you Bernard and Shafeeq !

2009-02-19T00:53:00.002+08:00

Why ohhh why ?
why do I have to read all that now :(
it kinda makes me suspect about things you know , you know ?
I'll tell Feeq tomorrow ! :(
I dont like that feeling :(

Oh well , studies with Feeq and Nard today
you 2 know why I said no to your question
actually , I said no cause I know it'll never happen
there's no miracle in this world unless if Im lucky
which Im NOT
but Im still gonna listen to the both of you anyway
but I really dont want to give it
cause it may spoil our friendship

I know I love you la
but I just dont want to go back to what I was
it's scary and guilty just thinking about it
I afraid of hurting someone I love again ...

Anyways , I love you too , Mr Jacq
you'll always be the one I'll look out for :)
I cant wait to see you .
Misses ...

2009-02-16T22:14:00.003+08:00

For faggot(s) :

Please stop what you're doing

Im getting very angry

you're getting on my nerves

please leave me alone

or just fuck out of my life

thank you .

For people out there :
I dont mind what others think about me
but no matter what I'll still go my own way uh
but but if my close friends tell me to do correct stuff
I'll do it :)

For you ? :
Jut seeing you happy makes me happy
come on , you think I have the cheek to ask for more ?
Crazy .

For my class :
I love you all like how I love carrots , yes , how I love carrots :D

2009-02-15T20:27:00.002+08:00

WHOOO !! my mum agreed !!
I love her to the bloody max !!
Mummy , read this :D
I know I used to hate her , but its different :D
WHOOO !! I love my mum !!
and equally my dad too :P
he's the one I love since I was born :P
RANDOM !

2009-02-15T20:12:00.001+08:00

Ahhhh , plan cancelled :(
my mother didnt allow me to !!
but I listened to her anyways :)
I still can tell Maneater everything tomorrow :D

2009-02-15T19:23:00.001+08:00

I am home for the whole day !!
but Im going out soon .
gonna go over to Maneater's place and stay over tonight :)
got loads of things to say to her
sorry for the temper just now but I was real angry :(

2009-02-15T15:55:00.003+08:00

URG !
Im fucking angry
yes , fucking
I know its vulgar
but I simply cannot get it
Bastards .
someone please calm me down .
a girl , for god's sake .

and I will never forget Valentine's Night
I'll treasure it :)
only for this part Im thinking happy stuff .

2009-02-15T07:41:00.005+08:00

I had a great Valentine's ?

ans: GOD DAMN YES !!!!

whoooooo , in the morning of Valentine's

met up with Bernard and head to schl

yes , on a saturday :)

finished up some class stuff !!

head home to change out of schl uni

headed down to Bukit Gombak stadium

to cheer for the dear trackers :D

CONGRATULATIONS :)

had a small chat at the MRT station

there was Josh Feeq Kenn Bernard Jianyang Shawn and me

and yes , Im the only girl again

but what's the use ?

Im a guy to them :O

ok , then we headed down to Chinese Garden

JAMMED !!!

halfway through

Shawn went home

and while walking to the MRT station

everyone disturbed Bernard

I was on the phone so I didnt really notice what happened

got food and waited for a bus

and a miracle happened !! :)

took 180 towards Boon Lay

and met Noah there

had no where to go

so all of us sat on the grass with the Blangadesh workers :P

took a bus over to Sherlyn's place

Jeremy Eriza were there too

and had quite a nice rest and talk there :)

soon , Jeremy Eriza Josh Feeq went home

and we left Sherlyn's place

took a bus

went to Jurong Point and ate Mac :)

left there and we stayed over at Bernard's place

I slept till my mouth was open

Ended my story :)

...

The piercing in her belly

They turn my legs to jelly

I , Im really falling for you

I , hate what you're puling me through

What have you done to me now

I just cant sleep at night

...

2009-02-11T23:50:00.003+08:00

I HAD A GREAT CHAT WITH FEEQ AND THE DOG TODAY :)

thanks !!

2009-02-11T00:47:00.003+08:00

Im so gonna have back my old hair
I look so damn ~~fucking~~ freaking ugly now .
and so many people in the schl
is having the same hairstyle as me
I CANNOT TAKE IT
ROARRR !!!

For now , I shall be honest with my feelings :D
I am tired , so I need to sleep :)
NIGHTS !!

I know you're tired
go to sleep , go to sleep :)

2009-02-10T00:22:00.005+08:00

After remembering what that ALEX (since he likes purple) told me today
I just remembered what he tod me
was what I almost did
just that I kept that thing with me all along
I just cannot give it to him uh
~~fucking difficult~~
ok , I shall be less vulgar in my talking
been very vulgar recently and I dont know why too
it just , *snap* and the words came out
shit man , ah damn , crap .
all vulgars !! :(
I may show it to ALEX tomorrow

Awwww , I miss Sherly
which we just talked to on the phone just now
miss her mummy -ness :P

want to write so many things you know
but too tired , gonna go to sleep !!

I wanna be a boy and have girf(s) !!
okok , I was joking :P

2009-02-08T06:32:00.002+08:00

Hahaha , it's 6.32am right now
and I just got home
maybe yesterday wasn't such a boring day after all

In the afternoon :
went to meet Sherlyn Kelly Jeremy and Eriza at JP
walked to her grandma place
Kelly went home
met Shawn and then Sherlyn stayed at the grandmother's place
Shawn Eriza Jeremy and me left to his place

In the evening/night :
they played mahjong while I played the PSP
Fir and Alex to came
left Shawn's place and went to Fico Sport's Hub
played soccer from 10 to 12
during the time Josh Feeq Jianyang and Heekent came
and Eriza and Jeremy cabbed home
while we played like crazy !! :P

After midnight :
Bernard came
played another 1 hour ( from 1+ to 2+ )
Josh Alex Feeq HeeKent left for home
the rest slacked there a lil while
Shawn Alex and Fir cabbed back to his place to get their bags
and then went home
Me Bernard Jianyang cabbed down to Pioneer
and met Fir there
slacked at Mac till 6 plus
talked about many many things
which got me so fucking angry ...
but calmed down soon after :)
Fir walked home
bernard sent Jianyang and Heekent near their place in the cab
then sent me to my bus stop :)
got home , blogged !!!

2009-02-07T12:17:00.001+08:00

Boring day :S

2009-02-07T03:31:00.002+08:00

SCREAMMMM !!

Im not asleep yet :)

2009-02-07T00:05:00.007+08:00

PICTURE POSTING TIME !!

Practically playing with a self-timer with a 8.1 mega-pixel phone !!

Today at the park :)

Jamming buddies , there's Josh and Fir but I dont have their picture :S

My class !!

oh yeah , there's bitch in my class :)

felt a bit sick today

went home to rest instead of going training

I seriously wanted to train today but I just cannot do it :(

after waking up

went to the park as usual today

and this time we talked a lot

with new people in the conversation group

and I didnt know the "someone" have such a big mouth

well , secrets aint suppose to be told

fuck those that made me so pissed

angry with you all I tell you

I seriously cannot believe the conversation I had today was so real

like what I noticed was also in it , I am not the only one

well , another confusing post from me :)

Once upon a time , there was a girl
who met a guy at the toy house
which is very patient and kind
after a few months
they got together
but the girl took him for granted
the guy couldnt take it
and they broke off with each other
it was the girl's fault
she jumped off at the highest peak of
the toyhouse
and was never seen again
THE END .

2009-02-06T14:38:00.004+08:00

Whoa , after reading my archives
I just found out I went head over heels in love :S
ups and downs , ups and downs !!
I took so many things for granted and got angry for nothing
if I ever get into a relationship again
I swear and swear that Im not ever gonna do those things again
it hurts the one I love most :(
if only I can turn back the clock and treat you better
I wont be feeling guilty almost everyday
not even trying to pick up a conversation with you .
Im not embarassed or what , Im filled with guilt

and when did I turn into such a bad girl ?
why cant I just settle down and be more matured huh ?!?
*ranting over an over again about me .. blah blah blah
Raynee Wong you @#$%@#$%@#!@#$ !! you &@#~!@^&)(*&^!!
I loved you at the wrong time ..
and I dont think I'll be expecting much
since I treated you like shit
I realised things late
but its never late than never

having loads and loads of homework is such a bore !
homework doing time is always soo fun !!
I miss going out ...

time for me to go and rest
Im super tired today
look at the time :)
*been going home very very early recently ...

2009-02-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

New blogskin ?

I may not show it but it's still there

2009-02-05T22:07:00.005+08:00

Hello .

Well , Im a lousy chairman for my class
I wonder why I even turned into one
maybe everything's just a joke or something like that , right ?
everything seems like a dream to me .
maybe I'll wake up someday and found out Im just some typical person
leaving everyday off her dead life

And you know what ?
I just want to have normal friends
friends that I can talk and play with
but now , all my friends in schl are damn alright and fun
yet my outside friends ... there's always something that has to be put in the middle
I just dont know how to explain
confusing myself

Im not upset or what la , just find that things always comes out very weirdly .
oh yeah , sorry for not updating
was too lazy :P

I loveee green :)

*maybe Im writing crap , one day I'll come back to this post

and check whether it is crap or not :)

2009-02-03T00:58:00.003+08:00

Im gonna sleep late tonight as usual :S
cant seem to sleep again
seriously cannot take it uh
no wonder Im late almost everyday ...
want to wake up early also cannot :(
I wonder whose the next victim who need to wake me up everyday man
it used to me someone ...
hahaha , nevermind , shall not think of the past :(
just came back home from doing my homework with Bernard and Emma
they are nice study buddies , serious .
want to join us ?
contact me then ! :D

2009-01-27T03:27:00.002+08:00

I cant seem to sleep
you know why ?
Im not gonna tell you :)
hush hush little secret !!

finished your homework ?
well , Im gonna finish mine tomorrow most probably :D
and anyone who wants to go with me please contact me :)
muhahahahahahahahahahaha

I miss you so so so so so so so so so much
but I dont want you to bother , really !!
hahahahahaha , Im always a happy kid !!

2009-01-27T01:33:00.004+08:00

Im really glad to have the both of you as my friends
you 2 , seriously make my day man
without you 2 , I'll be crying like a dog every moment alone
THANKS A HELL LOADS !!!

I braided my hair today !!
and I felt so young today too !!
and Huimin saw me but I didnt see her :O

and and I watched Inkheart
and it was awesomeee :D
and I couldnt stop adding ands
and I knew so many things online today
and it was all a total shock for me

and Im going to turn in now , very tired
TOOOODLES :D

2009-01-26T11:03:00.003+08:00

Hello !!
Im at some block downstairs with Shafeeq and Jeremy
and Jeremy is playing with the Sepak Takhraw ball
I tell you , we talked a lot sia since from 4 plus till now
and I didnt expect that it will be 7.25pm now
Sherlyn and Shawn will be coming over now
and then I realise so many things
so I shall be your friend now
no more steading and shit
Im not asking for that anymore
just hearing you talk with Dhouse and Feeq can liao
happy enough !!
can concentrate with my studies and everything and track !!
teeeheeeehehehehe
sheeesh :P

well , I wrote this in the notes part
and now Im posting this !!!

oh yeah , I stayed over at Sherlyn's place by accident this morning
woke up at 8 and found that everyone had gone home at 3am
CRAPPP !! and they didnt wake me up :(
hahahaha , I really must thank Sherlyn for letting her sleep on her bed
I love you a lot , SHERLYN :*

2009-01-24T12:10:00.003+08:00

Okokokokokokokokokok
come on .......
I just wanna be friends ......
it wont be that difficult can it ?
you mean messaging a friend is wrong ?
then what is a phone for anyway ?

hahahahaha , went to Shawn's place yesterday and wore my favourite teeee :D
cant help it la , love it too much liao
then after that spent most of my time there talking with Feeq
and I raped Eriza and Sherlyn !!!
ate at KFC then when to look for my mum
bought a dresssss ?
then went home and I slept like a pig
and I woke up now waiting to go over to my father's place
then after that at 3.30pm going over to King's Albert's Park to study
I think :D

2009-01-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

RAYNEE is always happy :)

change myself , into a better person , for the person I love
ignore the post before , I am angry , but not because of Josh
after thinking , I found out that I was angry about myself
I shall always be myself yet changing into someone for the person I love

2009-01-20T20:55:00.005+08:00

I hate today , till I cannot express my feelings at all .

searching for a file this morning
till I came late to schl
got my phone confiscated
and got a ticking off from Mr Sia ?
forgot to bring my badge
wore the wrong colour shoes
forget to bring the money for the class fund and E maths thing
forget to bring my wallet
was emo-ing like some idiot around class today
schl ended and I headed down to SPE
had track there and was about to leave when Mr Tham came back
he talked to me , saying that I may snap any minute
some kind of a scolding ?
and I was sad and angry altogether today
about last night
I took up all my courage , to text Joshua
end up , conclusion , he hates me
just because I said Hello , how are you? :)
with a smiley face somemore
and you claim to be my friend
you dont want to entertain people who like you isit ?
FINE , so be it
I cant be bothered anymore
since you hate people like me
then I shall freaking hell get lost from your life
to think I got so happy over little little things
how childish can I be ?
to think I quit smoking and you didnt notice
for what I quit ? ( Im not going to go back )
Im not going to freaking care anymore , so fucking pissed
although I know Im still gonna love you
I dont want to be that bugger in your life , to be that asshole you hate
to think I worked so hard and got worried over small things
you didnt even care , as a friend even
why do I even work so fucking hard ?
to make me even cry for you ?
and you never even care ...

2009-01-18T16:29:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG
Im jumping up down let right like a rabbit !!
and I love carrots !! YEAH , you heard me !!
I love carrots and I dont mind getting them as a gift !!

GRINNNNNNNNS , I LOVEEEE YOU GIRL !!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU :D:D
I feel like crying right now , from joy !!
* I know its childish , hahahaha
Im going to go share my joy now at Sherlyn's place
but Im not going to tell anyone what Im happy about !!
I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOUUUUUUU , THANK YOU !!

2009-01-18T10:57:00.002+08:00

Click on the nuffnang ads please :(
I wanna earn money !!
and I still miss Joshua :(
I ruined everything yesterday
don't feel like talking about it

Oh ya , I found a box of cigrattes on the bus yesterday on bus 196
the brand was Texas 5 , but only 1 stick was inside
contraband one some more :/
and you know what ?!?!
I never left it on the seat
took the box
got off the bus
took out the lighter from my bag
and threw both the things into the dustbin
so proud of myself !!!!!! :D

But I still spoiled the day yesterday
I was super angry , I cannot control at all uh
Im so sorry Joshua Firdhouse Shafeeq Jeremy Eriza Kenn and Bernard
for not controlling it

had been jamming these few days
and got very tired over it
Jamming kills uh :S

anyway
may update soon ?
please please read my blog boy :(

2009-01-11T13:57:00.001+08:00

I really miss you :(

2009-01-04T21:50:00.008+08:00

A BIG THANK YOU !!

To this sexy Baby here :D

she bought me a pair of Converse "guilty" shoes :D

and its really expensive , you wont wanna know :S

thats why I love her so much :*

not for her getting me the shoes ,

for everything she did with me for the past holidays !!

Hahaha , this is me then :D

New Year !

First day of school

Today ...

Ahhhh , freaking tiring day

gonna get my new school shoes tomorrow :S

wearing it with Sherlyn !!!

whooooooo :D

I miss him sooooo much :(

2009-01-01T16:56:00.002+08:00

SCHL ( gahhhhh )

2 months and 1 week ended fast

and I know why , I was super duper busy

even if Im not busy , I am fully occupied with someone in mind :)

tomorrow , schl will start already la !!

urg , schl , O's , CCAs , friends , SL , him ...

stressed up feeling coped up inside :O

I feel like going out to de - stress now

but no one wants to go out

suppose to have a class outing today but ...

got quite pissed off with many stuff and in the end it was cancelled

I really like my class a lot but sometimes things just ain't the way it is

having loads of fun recently

and have been meeting XinyiBaby for more than a week straight

meeting up with my class was even more awesome

if everyone was there I mean :)

but somehow , 3e4 will never meet up all together :S

someone will always be busy

or they don't wanna come

very disappointing for me :(

I always miss you

even if you talk to me

you're right beside me

I'll still miss you

even if I'm staring at you

it's like not even looking at you like in the past

I miss his warmness

the way he treated me indifferently from other peeps

his shoulder to lie on

his smile :)

his hugs

his kisses

his jokes

his dance

his crankyness

his cuteness

his patience

his touch

his everything

ahhh , it's a gone

I guess I must have missed him a lot , gonna go crazy ?

maybe yes , maybe no .

I'm a failure for everything uh

always not doing things well

I hope 2009 will be better for everyone and myself .

but 2008 was great too , I made many new friends

and I met him :)

2008-12-23T14:45:00.004+08:00

This picture is sooo cute !!!

After he has grown up :D

AKKKK , I really miss him :(

2008-12-23T14:35:00.004+08:00

Gonna go work soon

was suppose to go for training today but I overslept

till 2 plus sia !! which is now :S

I remembered having a call with Rebecca and I told her I will meet her on Thurs

wondering whether its a dream a not :O

After work I get to meet XinyiBaby :D

finally , after so long I get to see her !!

and then my class is gonna have a BBQ on the 30th

celebrating so many things sia !!

hahahahaha , jealous that you're not in my class yeah ? :P

JOKING !!!

What's happening ? Why are you so cold to me ?

I never did anything wrong towards you .. right ?

( this is not referring to Joshua )

I wanna see you !!!

worried for you also !!!

and why can't I contact you at all ?!?!?!

I really miss you .

( this is then for Joshua )

2008-12-22T23:50:00.003+08:00

I miss Joshua :(

doubt that I can get back that feeling he once have for me

Im super tired !!

just got back from work , and then had training in the morning somemore :(

ahhhhh , tomorrow Macritchie training , I hope I dont die :S

My class chalet was great !!

SL camp was so so :D

Danzation was nice too , met so many peeps there

brief of what I did !!

I MISS JOSHUA A LOT AND A LOT :( HOW !??!?!?!

I think Im gonna die from missing him :(

2008-12-21T18:16:00.003+08:00

Just posting to tell you all that .....
TODAY IS JOSHUA'S BIRTHDAY !!
Happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to JOSHUA
happy birthday to you :D

will post a picture later on , now at my father's place !!

I wonder if he knows ... :O
heh heh heh , I'm so so so so so bored
sms me to entertain me leh !!
I hope the birthday boy gets in contact with me
I miss him so much ah :D
I don't think he knows that I like him still
cause he doesn't read my blog after the break up
don't even know whether I should tell him anot ?

hahahahaha , I miss him a lot , sorry , again :(
my Christmas wish is ................
people who are close with me will know :)
but I doubt it will be fufilled :(

hahahahaha , will post about many more things later on
gonna go rest now
tired from doing a delivery last night to Jalan Bukit Merah :O
so many fun things happened !!!

2008-12-09T03:01:00.000+08:00

yes yes , look at the picture and look below below belowwww !! :D

HEE HAA HEE ?? *Xinyi's weird laughter*

I can't sleep !!!!! AHHHHHHH

tomorrow got camp in the morning early early somemore

SHIT !!!! Urg , forcing myself to sleep after this post .

Met up with a few of the SLs in the afternoon

there was only me Sam Garrick Douglas and Joshua

Mr Wan came after we ate

bought more camp stuff

after that went off to City Hall

met up with Xinyi and Kenn

was on popular demand !!! Both snatching me at the same time

Kenn ask me to be his band , with Shafeeq and the others , as a vocalice

Xinyi ask me to be the Epic Sunday's vocalice cause Anna had to go back to Philippines

ahhhh , how ?? LOL !!!

and I made 3 new friends !!

Ram Nicholas and I don't know what's that last guy's name :D

In the end Ram and the other guy went first

and the 4 of us shopped around

super tired , walked here and there

and that crazy girl wasn't tired at all !! :P

then after that ate at HongKong cafe

met Heekent and Jianyang there

bid Xinyi and Nicholas goodbye :(

headed down to Changi and fetch ChinHwee back from Australia

ate Mr Bean , went back home by train !!

AHHH , FUN DAY !!! :D

Okok , I all the following pictures are in order ( I think )

slowly read ah

don't ask me the date cause I somehow forget most of them :P

LOL , videos will be up soon :D

Went to recce with the SLs !!

super long day , tired to elaborate :P

Met Jon at my place downstairs

walked with him to Shuwen's place

and we were a bit lost and a bit not

found the place and celebrated Junliang's birthday

talked a lot with A LOT of people also

took Jon's sister car back to Clementi with Vemon

Home :D

Had a class recce !!

We found the chalet at least !!

Videos will be put up after my camp

remind me ok ?? :D

I remember this night man

a wasted night

URG !!! LOL

got chase out by almost everywhere

super suay uh

we sleep at some HDB's staircase somemore :S

AHHHH , I wanna go jamming with them !!

Before jamming was slacking at West Coast Park

ate a piece of Shafeeq's Mega Meal beef :D

headed to Outram and jammed !!

After jamming

Bernard Alex and Fir came to my place downstairs and slacked

super funny uh , but we were all tired :O

Before I went out of my place

she hold on to my littlest finger and didn't let me out :'(

in the end I took a picture of her and she let go !! :D

Went out with Rebecca and Racheal

to the Haji Lane !!

window shopped around

and yes , you saw that dress :P

I bought it already !!

Ate Steamboat Buffet with my father side of the family

was super full uh

and I met a new friend , Meowww :D

LOL , she's super cute and friendly

btw , Meowww is the kitty above :P

I like this picture a lot and a lot

cause I miss my long fringe

and it looks so nice in this pictures :(

weheheheheheh !! :'(

Ok , I got this weird ass photo at Ayer Rajah while drinking Godfather's soup

had the one in the negative mode at first

then they ask me to convert back to normal and Nico looks .. WEIRDer !!

Went to Sheng Shiong to get camp stuff !! :D

ENOUGH !!! I'm tired already :O

Nights and ciaos :P

2008-12-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

Im super super tired :(

thats why I didn't bother to post the pictures

I can post more than 400 pictures already uh

but I'm really too busy or too tired

at least I made an effort to make a little post :P

Whoa , I'm so into dresses nowadays

just bought one just now and I don't know when to wear it :S

finding some event so that I can wear it uh

I think it's super pretty

and who will be so nice to but me a black fedora ?

I will give you loads of love man <3<3

nahhh , just joking , I give love to no one :D

I want to post about what's happening these few days uh

like what I'm doing and stuff

but I really too tired already uh

doing this post already making my eyes have closed already :(

sooo , soon uh

I'll summarize all the stuff I've been doing :D

so soooolly :P

BYEBYE meow :D

* I want a kitten !!! *

2008-12-05T00:20:00.003+08:00

Ahhh , I can't post pictures and videos

it's not that my comp is spoilt or something like that

it's that I'm just too busy or too tired to blog them

I'm so so so so so so so SORRY !!

Went t Macritchie( if its spelt like that ) and had training in the morning

started at 8 ended at 12 ++

went back to schl and had a small meeting with Mr Wan and the other SLs

headed out of schl and went to eat at Ayer Rajah before we went to Sheng Shiong

saw the dance people and Jon and Nico sent me a retarded picture .

show it to you some other day

after that went to Sheng Shiong and bought the stuff there

went back to schl and talked for a moment before we continued doing out stuff

halfway through met Alex and went to the 3rd floor and met Fir there

slacked for awhile before I went back to the SL room

played with water guns and then got tired

went to look for Racheal and we went opposite to eat

came back to schl and watch the soccer match

Sheryl came soon after , with her guitar

Fir play until super cute uh :P

watch for awhile more and then leave the schl at 6++

took a bus to IMM and bought Sheryl's headphones there

Alex left halfway as he had something on

slacked around and Joshua came to look for us

talked and played at the open space at the 3rd floor

went to the bus interchange at Jurong

Sheryl left first as her bus came early

while I was waiting for mine a few weird people talked to me

so I called Joshua and Fir to come over and help me

was freaking scared

soon they left in the bus I was suppose to take but I waited with them for another one

I took the next bus and guess what

at the next stop I saw those weird people and they came up the bus and sat around me

URG , don't want to talk about what happen next .

Thanks again to Joshua and Fir for the help through phone and being there for me

I really iz fucking scared uh :S

2008-11-30T10:06:00.004+08:00

Let's just say , I wasn't a good ex girlf , I self-praise and demoralise

always want to get things my way

never thinking about my partner

so do no ever date me even if I'm the last girl on planet Earth

but I still miss Joshua :(

I wish I can like treat him better now

but he doesn't want to

I don't blame him for not not giving me a chance

cause if you we're him you'll do the same thing too

I really want to love him again

and treat him way better than what I did in the past

I really really miss him :(

2008-11-30T01:25:00.003+08:00

I miss you Joshua.

I really really do.

I'm very sorry.

tearing right now. :(

2008-11-29T10:06:00.007+08:00

Guess what guess what guess what ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I brought loads and loads of stuff yesterday

and they are the things that I usually don't wear out at all

draft of what I bought :

1 jumper like shirt+pants

2 skirts

2 dresses

3 sleeveless tees

** and damn , I still want that fedora :(

whoaaaaa , wanna see ?

date me then for an outing then

but I'll be busy ? let's seee ...

today - SL meeting

sunday - maybe going to visit me papa

monday - track in the morning , recce in the afternoon

tuesday -track in the morning , going out with XinyiBaby and staying outside

wednesday - IM FREEE ( I think )

thursday - track in the morning , may have drinking session with people that are T.B.C

( he'll will be back on this day , at least I get to see him :) )

friday - track in the morning , IM FREEE ( I think )

saturday - date with XinyiBaby and Shuxian :D

sunday - FREEEEEE ( I think )

I want to be busy on all days

please ask me out to do something random

I hate getting coped up at home with nothing to do

and and , I love all my freaking friends to the freaking coreeeeeeee !!

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN !!

P.S.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON !!

P.S.S.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNLIANG !!

DATEEE ME !! RAYNEE SAYS DATEEE ME !!!!!

2008-11-28T11:07:00.004+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH :P

Okok , I forget to update again

sorry sorry sorry

was busy busy busy , yeah , and I love the busy - ness !!

Had a recce with my fellow lovely classmates on Tues

fellow lovely classmates = Fir Shafeeq Alex Bernard and Huimin

we sat in WCP mac from in the afternoon 1 to 8-9 PM

so the class should be thankful enough to have us to help them prepare :P

after that went to slack around WCP

and Joshua came to look for us too

after that left the place and was suppose to go to Joshua's place to get the $$

but Shafeeq did it in the end so I was super happy !!!!

(dont need to suffer :( )

haha , went home used the comp and forget to post

and then was so tired I went to sleep

On wed went to Sentosa with my fellow cute track and field mates

super funny ar the whole trip but then very short time only

we ran away from something without paying

then after the whole trip went to Jurong Point

"ate" many many things

went to the arcade and played drums

and I found out that Heekent was noober than me :P

LOL , went home :)

Yesterday had another recce with my classmates

this time , we went to the extent to bring down the price of the chalet

from 42 to 20 :D

be proud Raynee , be very proud !!

haha , then in the evening like that we even went to Pasir Ris

but in the end we were "lost" around the area

but overall even all was tired we had super a lot of fun !!

WHOA , I love us man !!

Shall update again soon

gonna go out with my mum and sis for some shopping sessions

at HAJI LANE

WHOA !! ( that fedora and that dress ) <3<3

haha , ciaos !!

P.s videos + pictures will be uploaded very very soon

P.s.s I want to work and earn money :"(

2008-11-24T23:50:00.015+08:00

RAYNEE MOST SPASTIC MOMENTS !!

Individual Favourites !!

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Double Favourites !!

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Triple Favourites !!

2008-11-23T12:11:00.003+08:00

I may blog later , gotta rush out again

just got back from XinyiBaby's place :)

her friends are fun people , real fun :D

Going to my Father's place now

gonna help with the painting and stuff in the house I guess ?

and I know how to play GUITAR already !!

so proud of myself :P

There's a problem with me nowadays

I know I complain about being busy

but I like it

even if Im busy , I will try to add stuff into it so that I get busier

cause it helps me a lot

I miss you so much

imagining is seriously no fun

regretting now is too fucking late

i don't know what to do

and I know I can't do anything now too

cause to you I'm a bad girl , a very bad bad girl .

2008-11-22T16:26:00.003+08:00

ROAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR !!!!

busy busy busy .

gonna rush out soon and also update something else

super super rushy today

This morning saw some people , on some bridge

wanted to smile widely but nooo , my face says no to me :(

and and I just got back home from the SL recce

I tell you , its super duper fun and tiring too

haha , shall blog later , if Im going home :)

my eyes are puffy like 2 fishballs cause I didn't have enough sleep

sooo now , Im waiting for XinyiBaby to reach Clementi before I leave my place

tsktsktsk , waiting waiting waiting :P

2008-11-22T00:13:00.003+08:00

TODAY/NIGHT WAS FREAKING DAMN GOODY GOODY AWESOME !!

haha , as usual went for training

tough ahh today !! $%^$%^&-ing tired I tell you

did catching first and all of us did freaking hilarious stuff

and the the workout

but I didn't finish it all cause you know ....

and then went to 4th floor to watch the 3 guys bathe

super funny

they take the fire-hose and treat it like its some Wild Wild Wet game :O

after that went back to the gym and they were going to watch Madagascar 2

but I had to go which was another #$%^$%^-ing thing to do

went home changed and met Jaslyn Heekent and Douglas

took the train to Harbourfront and we found a lost girl , named Xinyi :)

then went to Habourfront center and ate Sakae

while eating Kenn and Bernard came

sat in there from 3+ to 5+ but we ate super little

wreck big havock there too

then Jaslyn left halfway cause she had to go :(

after that paid and we went out of Habourfront center to wait for Noah and Jaypee

Noah came soon after but Jaypee took very very long to come

we waited for like 1 hour ++

took a bus and Douglas went home by another bus

went to Redhill and Xinyi cut her hair there

it seriously don't even look like she cut it :P

after that went to some place and sat around

Heekent left after that as he had a FAMILY dinner

so the remaining 6 of us , Me Xinyi Noah Jaypee Kenn and Bernard

walked all the way to Queensway but it wasn't a very far distance

ate again there and then we went to the arcade !

me and Xinyi play the 3 color buttons thing till our hand super red

then took some lame videos and pictures outside Queensway as the arcade was closed

I think Xinyi gonna upload all of them uh , so go seeee

so continue ... we walked to IKEA , and got chased out , as usual

slowly walked to Anchor point and went to the 7-11 to get somemore food

ate and chat and all of us went home soon after

I know I write don't sound fun at all but still

TODAY/NIGHT WAS FREAKING DAMN GOODY GOODY AWESOME !!

2008-11-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

okok , Im gonna blog , again .

I need help

help to earn money

help to get busy

help to do well in studies

help to forget things ( I know it will always be there )

What I want to say is ... I wanna change

change for the better

do what is right and now wrong

but I always cannot do it cause something will always be in the way

from now on , I shall make it up

for being so mean and bad to Joshua all this while

in a friendship way , I know if I go on begging and begging

it'll be worst , but I hope for the best for everything

I really don't want to be the person you hate in that eyes

I want to be the person you loved , from now on , I MUST change :)

please help me , people ?

I really really really need help :(

2008-11-20T19:08:00.003+08:00

Haha , I'm super happy right now !!
you know why , cause I went to talk things out with Joshua
face to face and you know what , I finally understand
if he didn't scream and shout at me , I wouldn't have realised !!

At first , I was like

Then I went to

but soon after , I got cause I tried to stop crying

then I become very for everything Im doing at that time until I wanted him to be

but after talking for awhile I got again

but very very long after I got cause I realised everything after a very long time

and soon I started being very

and we started and then we both

finally , everything's well now , I must change !!
to become a better person of cause , but keep the good-o me inside still
haha , this relationship show me how I am all along
a selfish , childish , self-centered , always-wanting-for-more person
haha , we're over with each other but we'll still be good friends
I won't get over him at all , but treasure him a lot
we'll see in the future la , LOL !!

2008-11-18T12:19:00.005+08:00

I will always love and miss you as my boyf , Joshua .

I am willing to change no matter what it takes .
I really treasure everything that we did in the past .
and I really want to be with you .

To me , you're a great guy

2008-11-16T18:49:00.001+08:00

STUPID FRIENDSTER !
made me wait and wait for maintenance in the end delete all my friend
add me again , http://profiles.friendster.com/horneyraynee
thank you very very much

2008-11-16T17:28:00.000+08:00

I want a job and I want to earn money , tag me if you've got a job to introduced

THANK YOU !!

2008-11-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

I really iz very very worried about Joshua I don't know what is happening to him everyday and I hope nothing bad has happened :(
I don't dare to ask him cause whenever I ask him I think he'll get pissed :(
I really really wanna meet him , alone , soon , so we can talk things out but he's too busy
I think of so many many stuff everyday that I think negative things too
I really feel like smoking now .

Spastic Photos of today

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Selling this 2 dress both at 15 bucks
tag me in my tagboard if you're interested :)

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A quiz tagged by EMMAN

The rules & regulations

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself

2) People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own, 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly

3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names

4) No tag back.
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I love green , ever since I got into Secondary schl but I don't know why too
I was very ugly in the past , wanna see ??
I was a super quiet and anti-friends girl in primary schl when I was ugly
I start bathing from my head , then the face and then the rest of the body !!
I love to sing in the shower , when no one's at home :P
I love Buttercup in the Powerpuff Girls when I was very young , maybe till now too !!
I like to watch Okto , espeicially Icarly !!
I train halfway during track and always feel like shitting :O
I think all camps are lame but after I go for it I feel that they are damn fun and a-okay !!
I love to stare at how my boyfriend sleeps and remember what he does in his sleep

Lucky ten to do this;

Bernard
Casia
Farah
Jae
Jaslyn
Jianyang
Kenn
Rebecca
Sheryl
Xinyi